Hey. I know I haven’t posted in awhile, but looking back at this I just have a few announcements I feel like I have to make. Who even remembers me anyways?
1. I’m not dating Jared anymore. Please do not bring him up in the future. I am not entirely willing to talk about what happened, but we’re not together, nor do I think we’ll ever be together again.
2. I have a major crush on one of my guy friends. I don’t know why I have never mentioned him on this blog; he’s just so nice! For his privacy, I’m just going to call him Colin. Unfortunately he does not know how he feels about me, so we’ll see how that goes. I have a feeling he doesn’t like me back though. I’m also heavily obsessed with him- I don’t think I have ever been this obsessed before. Like I’ve had crushes but damn, if you guys talked to me on a daily basis I’d at least scream Colin’s name once and how nice he is. I wasn’t even this obsessed with Jared.
3. Looking at that one post where I listed my standards, I have changed a lot; I’m a lot less picky. All I want for a guy at this point is for him to respect my wishes when it comes to things like children, not be an asshole, not do drugs, and to not have piercings/tattoos. The last requirement could be altered depending, but it’s just a massive turn off for me.
4. Also I’m not less depressed emotional wise, but back then despite my extreme sadness, I sounded so energetic. Now I sound pretty depressed all of the time, but I’m a lot less suicidal than I was before, I guess.
5. Did I mention how nice Colin is? Like he legitimately makes me so happy. ;w;;
6. Yesterday I was staring at him in Art class while the teacher was talking. He noticed me, and gave me a weird look. ;w;;;;
7. I EVEN TAKE CREEPER PHOTOS WITHOUT HIS PERMISSION BECAUSE I HAVE A PROBLEM ;W;W;;;
8. Read 2, 6, 7 and you can get a good idea why I think he doesn’t like me back.
9. don’t wORRY GUYS, HE STILL CONSIDERS ME ONE OF HIS BEST FRIENDS