I decided to take a little nostalgia trip, and I could see the old conversations Jared and I used to have. It’s depressing really, how he used to joke around a lot, but nowadays he’s not the same.
I miss the comfort that I received in that relationship. It was absolutely outstanding and I loved all of the memories him and I had together.
It’s sad that even though he’s nothing like he was once before, and everything that I liked about him is gone- I still want to be with him. I still love him.
But he’s moved on. He’s dating someone else. He’s much happier with her. And she’s much prettier than me.
And when I find myself liking another guy, OF COURSE he doesn’t like me back. Of course he’d deny me. Sure I’d be an entertaining friend, but there’s nothing to like about me romantic wise.
I’ve messed everything up so badly.
I can only hope that in the future I can laugh at this post and be happy with someone.
However, no matter what, it seems with enough time you just end up getting bored of each other. Or they just get bored of you.